PMDD

So it's weird, since I got diagnosed with PMDD I have been keeping more of a track of when my symptoms occur and I have found that it only seriously affects me every other month. Which is good because I can now predict it more easily, but bad because my bad weeks are happening right now which is never fun for anyone! I read the following on an American website (yep the Yanks do seem to be so far ahead in recognising these things - was that a compliment??!!) and it made me cry because this is how I feel.

"September, 2008Chicago, Illinois
I have experienced severe mood swings my entire life (as well as excruciating cramps). They have been at the heart of major problems with my family for years. I am a very strong-willed, opinionated person, but most of the time I am logical as well. Then there are those times where the part that prevents you from saying or doing something you will regret takes a vacation. When I was younger, I didn't pay much attention to my body. As I have gotten older I began paying more attention and I began to notice the pattern. Even then, I just figured it was PMS. That made me upset-why could most women go through PMS and not turn into the irrational person I do. When I was finally diagnosed with PMDD, it was actually a relief. At least now I know why I react the way I do. I began taking medication to help. When I decided to try to get pregnant I stopped taking the medication. Then trouble happened. I blew up at my "acting" supervisor, who was also a friend of mine, and it may have cost me my job. To make matters worse, she told me that my medical diagnosis was an excuse. Now I am struggling with the fact that I finally understand what my body is going through, but I am not comfortable telling anyone because I don't want them to think I am just making excuses."
That's the worst bit about PMDD, men think you are 'just hormonal' and women think that they manage ok with PMS so why are you making such a fuss.
If you read my last couple of posts you will notice that on the whole I have been content with life, but today I woke feeling achey, sore, sick, exhausted, miserable and hoping that I would get run over by a bus. What am I supposed to do with that? Anyway I decided to start taking the medication my Doctor prescribed me tonight so hopefully I will wake up feeling better tomorrow, here's hoping.